facing a fear

quidquid id est, timeo danaos et dona ferentes (Vergil)

I'm going away with someone for a week. This is something I'm very worried about. It will probably be ok, it may even be fun, but at this moment in time, with 12 hours to go before we leave for the airport, I'm scared.

I don't want to go into why because it will feed the fears. And I don't want to think about 'when I get back' because, as when I lie in bed thinking how much I need to sleep it eludes me, it will make the fears fester.

It is wrong to test God, but is it wrong to test relationships? Is every event in a relationship a test, or does that question reflect a negative frame of mind? I need to pack and I need to stop thinking so much.